dis is going to be a veri personal blog pple... veri veri veri dejected tdy... becoz of my dad...

*cries*

i noe papa... u want me to have a gd life... a life tt was/is unlike urs...
u always wanted me to be veri good in studies...
to be different frm all the cuz ...
so tt pple will nt look down on me...
so tt they will nt underestimate me..

u wanted me to be a teacher...
so i dreamt of being one too...
just to make u happy papa...
i portrayed being a teacher at hm...
and whenever i played wif my friends..

bt den... i had my 1st setback... my PSLE results...
i din do well... i barely made it...
mom was proud of me...
she hugged me...
u were angry and disappointed...
u slapped me...

den came the major phase of our lives...
my sec sch life..
i made u proud... for the 1st 2 years...
u were happy...
i was happy...
everything was fine...
till she came..
and spoilt everything...

i went astray...
coz i felt betrayed...
sad... confused... and cheap....

frens... became everything..
my life.. my soul... my happiness...
they were like drugs...
whenever i was wif dem... i felt high...
w/o dem... i was lost... totally...

i nvr made time for family...
i din ever remembered tt a family actually existed...

den...

she saw me...
she told u abt my habits...
u slapped me...
nearly killed me...

since den... everything has changed...
nth seems stable now..

now... i m in my another phase of life....
yet... nth has changed ever since tt day...
i noe u are sorry...
u noe i haf changed...

but still...
smth is hindering us..
and we will nvr be able to find it... nvr....

i love u papa...
veri veri much...
juz tt...
i can't say it.... to u... like i used to ....

*cries*